My Life as it is.

God's Brilliance that just lit up the night sky.

Sat, 04 Apr 2009 13:51:25 GMT

Emo. That is the word that can be used to describe me today. Rarely can it be that but yes. Today, the only word for me is emo.

I don't know why. I've just been really really moody and i just don't feel like layan-ing anybody. So if you talked to me today and got annoyed at my attitude, sorry lah.

Maybe I'm just starting to really feel it. The Stress. From everything. From school doing the senior page that nobody wanted to do (sorry again for snapping at you sheng). From the pressure to study. From my mum and dad to just do whatever they tell me to. Especially from BB.

There's just a point where a person just can't take it anymore. All that on your shoulders. So the only one to turn to is God.

It gets so frustrating sometimes that you never get a direct answer and it's like you're talking to a wall. But he's there when i need Him and He comforts me and gives me strength. Although i usually turn to Him when i'm down, He's always there to support us all.

Today especially, i just couldn't take it anymore. During NCOC, I must admit just felt really really pressured to do things right and get my members right. I was especially emotional today and when someone asked me about my squad's attendance bla bla bla, i almost cried. There were freaking tears in my eyes. After NCOC, i went to the toilet, locked the door and actually sobbed a little. I think a few people stared at me weird and Ji Ming asked me whether i was okay and all i could reply was a stilted "i'm fine" lest i start crying again.

I know it kinda feels like i'm pouring out my heart and soul here but i just want people to know that God is there for you no matter what.

Just as Mum, Dad and I finished dinner it started raining really really heavily and the wind was so strong and there was thunder and lighting everywhere non-stop. The sky lit up as though it was on fire but with white fire. And it was so scary but cool! Does that make sense? And it suddenly struck me that ...

Wow. God's the creator of all this and he's just amazing and he's in control of everything. He is AWESOME. BRILLIANT. And you know what? He loves me. And you. And everybody else. He won't ever throw anything at us that He thinks we can't handle. What we feel obstructs us, we should overcome it with God's guidance and help and support and that will only make us stronger. Stronger in character, in our faith in God.

So no matter the problems you have. They are things that we will definitely overcome.

So this friday is Good Friday. That day about 2000 years ago, Jesus died on the cross to save us all from our sins. So that we may go to heaven and be saved. And 3 days later he rose from the dead. That marks Easter by the way. And Jesus is alive!

So i wanna invite you guys to come for FBC youth's Easter event!

It's this Saturday, 11th of April.
From 7.00pm to 10.00pm.
At First Baptist Church PJ.
The speaker is Uncle Rodney Duncan.

Come for a night of fun, food, engaging worship, a relevant skit, and a powerful message.

One of Those Days.

Sun, 29 Mar 2009 14:10:11 GMT

So. Yesterday was one of those days where I just felt as if everything wasn't going the way I wanted it to.

So I woke up in the morning, washed up and went down for breakfast. Started to polish my stuff for BB 'in front of my computer'. That was my first mistake. I'm not really a computer addict but it just gets really tedious if you have to do the same thing over and over and over again every Saturday so i decided to just have a little change in my routine.

I switched on the comp and it booted up as normal. Naturally the first thing you do when you get on the comp is sign in to your MSN or open your Firefox or to DO SOMETHING. That's your purpose right? I mean why switch on your comp then? So. I type in my email address, password and hit 'enter'. The two stupid blue and green figures spin round and round and round after 2 minutes they finally stop. And then my msn just HANGS. Fine. Comp lag. But then msn tells me they can't sign in due to some problem or other. I thought okay fine. It happens.

So i click on the Firefox icon. Wait awhile and nothing happens. Click again. Wait. Nothing. I click on my iTunes. Wait. Nothing. IE icon. Wait. Nothing. By now i'm like */!?@!#?* Frustrated. You get the idea. So i double click the My Computer icon. Thank goodness it opens. I find my file/video and double click it. Wait. Wait. and Wait. NOTHING.

So for about 15 minutes i just click around on my comp just hoping that SOME program will open. Nothing. Switch on and off my comp a few times. Still NOTHING. I'm pissed alright. So its back to routine.

I go to my room to pin on my badges and it just so happens to be one of those days where they just refuse to pin on straight. I have to repin they like 20 times before they're straight. Wad the hell.

Lunch goes by without ordeal. After i change and go downstairs its exactly 1.00pm. Couldn't be so bad right? I'm on time. Then my dad just decides to drive soooo slowly and i arrive at 1.30pm. Great. I'm late for briefing i was thinking. So that riled me up. Thankfully we *didn't* have briefing so that calmed me down a little but i was still annoyed.

Fall in. I see all of TWO people standing in front of me when there's supposed to be at least 7 or 8. One excused cuz he was doing trumpet. So fine. I tick off the names of the list of people. One tore his muscle and can't walk. Then i just so happen to have two idiots who don't turn up every week. They just both have problems so they're *so called* excused. All the NCOs know about it right? Couldn't be so bad.

So that leaves HIM and HIM. I had no idea why neither of them turned up. HIM i had texted on Thursday and i assumed he was coming because he sounded like it. Maybe he was gonna be late? Then his brother turns up without him and with nothing to tell me. WTC. Then there's HIM. But forget it. He never tells me why. HER. You would think that since her brother is so active that she'd at least give me a reason or that her uber responsible brother would tell me why she doesn't turn up for weeks on end. From HIM i expect better. He's a freaking LCpl and my Asst. Sq. Leader.

I get complains from about 3 people during fall in about the attendance of my squad. Come ON! 1 is fine but three? And i kena pulak. Like its my fault. Fine. So TAHAN.

Fall out. One had to go home early. So that left ONE person standing in line. So when I go out to give the attendance that just leaves him standing there like some idiot all alone. Obviously the people are gonna say something right? The people as in at least another THREE. I mean i don't begrudge them that. But seriously. WHAT is wrong people who don't turn up and have no freaking sense of responsibility to tell why they're not coming. SOME people have the gall to reply *Home?* when i text them asking where they are. It just makes me look freaking bad as a leader when there are these kinds of people in my group. Sheese.

So yeah. That was my day. I settled it with him already so it's fine. Oh and thanks Ji Ming. Happy. Peace reigns. dot dot dot. SIGH.

And then there's today. I'm like whatever already. Some people don't come on time. There are also adults who just don't get it that we're in the middle of Youth service and they just keeping coming in and out, in and out trying to look at the paintings on sale. I'm like *HELLO! Don't just barge in. We're worshipping God here!* At least that's what i was thinking anyway. Then there's people who forget to bring stuff for me and what nots but i don't need them so bad so its more of an *make sure you bring it next time* kind of thing. Aaa. WHATEVER already laa.

So now i'm typing this on my sis' old laptop cuz the main comp still won't work and typing it only now cuz i was trying to decide whether to post this or not. But i just had to rant and get it out of my system. Sorry if you don't understand what i'm talking about but it's MY blog and MY rant space.

On a lighter note. Something 'funny' you could say, happened tonight. My parents and I went for dinner in 19. When we walked in, my mum waved to somebody i didn't recognise/know then we sat down. Then mum was like *that's my gynaecologist.* So i'm like okay. Then mum turns around and say *That's the guy who delivered Ji Chi and you.* And I'm like WHAT?

So weirddd. Hahaha. Then my dad came after he parked the car and my mum told him that the fella was sitting there. Then dad said *Wanna go meet the guy who delilvered you?* I was like *blink. blink. No?* Lol. =__=?

Time of publish of this post: 21:59.

Yeah. Took me thatt long to write it.

Earth Hour!

Sat, 28 Mar 2009 13:35:07 GMT

It is 8.35pm and i'm typing this entry in total darkness! Except for the computer screen light obviously. This is because it is

Earth Hour!!!

Come on people! Switch off your lights and save the earth. However much that can make a difference to the slowly dying planet we live on anyway. Hee. =D

News!

Thu, 26 Mar 2009 13:49:47 GMT

Finally got the last of my March test results today! I kinda expected to do better for add maths and spotted so many careless mistakes i feel kinda stupid but owh wells.

AND AND!! I got a freaking 92 for SEJARAH!

NINETY-TWO!!!

I know it was like only one chapter and so many people got 100 but i mean still!!!

Li-Hsien NEVER gets A's for sejarah let alone B's. Wow. I'm still digesting this. WOW.

Happy for me tuach? HEE =D

I don't really mean to be narcissistic but Li-Hsien is AWESOME mannn!! 92 for history.

HAH. Who would've ever believed it? Even mum couldn't believe it.

So i now have 8 A's out of the 9 subjects i take in school. I got a big fat D for bio. xD

Now you see the relation.

Li-Hsien + memorizing subjects i.e bio and sej = D's and failures. HAHA.

and another thing.

JG and KATY PERRY!??!?!

omggggg.

B.O.R.I.N.G

Sun, 22 Mar 2009 10:20:48 GMT

Woke up at 6.30am this morning. On. A. Sunday. =__=

Yvonne, Bianca, Sheng, Ryan, Zhen Yau, Kee Kiat, Chan Yew, Marissa, Derrick, Ghai Jon and I went for the 5 hour seminar for our undang which was so bloody boringg.

We practically paid 160 just to stone, sleep and listen to your iPod. Everyone was just dyinggg.

Lunch was no lunch at all. The miniscule canteen they had there was horrible. The Bee Hoon soup that Marissa and Kee ordered was almost tasteless but not quite. Everyone ended eating bread. Like potato bread. Bread with corn filling, strawberry, chocolate and so on. We also had Zapple. Ish.

Then had to stone for another 3 hours until 3.00. =__=

Then i was the LAST person to get sent home. Argh. By the time i reached home it was already 3.45 and by then i was soooo hungry.

Aaa. Whatever lah.

At least i get to take my undang as soon as i study for it and call the dude up.

Safety Test

Wed, 18 Mar 2009 05:03:00 GMT

OMGGG. xD I can't believe ittt.

I just so happened to check my email this morning (i rarely do it) and opened an email from Sir Loh that was sent at 8 something this morning. Wow. Talk about ngam-ness. HEEEE. =DD

RE: Safety Badge - notes‏

From:	Loh, Meng Hoi
Sent:	Wednesday, 18 Mar, 2009 8: 23 AM

Dear All,

Enclosed the notes again�

Per last test :-

PASS : Amelia & Li Hsien

MARGINAL : Samuel Kok

Most have problem on SHOCK, STROKE, HEAT EXHAUSTION...

Sad��.pathetic��..shocking �. !!

Hahaha. I still trying to digest this. Can't believe i passed. Waliau wehhh. xD

Dedicated to BenJ

Tue, 17 Mar 2009 15:40:26 GMT

Omg. Lolsss!

I just so happened to drop by Rachel Chang's blog and i found a picture of BenJ with his old hairstyle! Funny to see you look like that after so long with your super cool straightened, side-parted hair. Not to mention LONG.

At the Hillsong concert i believe. A few years back. BenJ on the far right!

Christmas 08! He looks so chun now right?

5 Zeta

Tue, 17 Mar 2009 14:57:24 GMT

Today we had our FIRST Zeta outing. Previously, our outings always failed cuz nobody ever wanted to come cuz they weren't planned properly. But today we had a reason.

Taking photos for our senior page in the Gemala. =D

We did plenty of silly stuff, asked random people to help us take the photos and stuff. We even make a smiley face in the middle of the blue atrium at the new wing of Pyramid.

Only 23 people could make it today though. A lot of people were away in Malacca, Langkawi, Perak and so on. Haha.

I'm still waiting for the pics from Alvin who never ever comes online. Haha. It'll be quite a while before i get them.

One we took in school the other day. =D

5Z!!

YEP

Tue, 17 Mar 2009 14:30:56 GMT

It was a full day for me last Saturday. I had BB and i got to meet Julian, who just got back from NS and looks like some Cina Apek Gangster. xD

I also took my Safety test which if i pass would be a miracle considering i only studied the night before and the passing mark is 80. Aiyo, Sir Loh. Put to 70 lah. Maybe can pass leh. Haha.

After that we had drill but no refreshments cuz the squad leader who was supposed to prepare refreshments was away at Boot Camp with all the recruits and other people. Drill was kinda boring cuz each one of us were supposed to take turns commanding and i was first (started with the tallest person on the right. =__=) and after that i just stoned most of the time and talk with Julian about his oh-so-wunnerful experience in NS.

I rushed home after BB, had a bathe AND managed to dry my hair in time to leave at 7.05 cuz Mum and Dad had a wedding dinner to attend at 7.30.

We finally had our so called YEP *Annual* Dinner that night.

Arrived at Parade at 7.15 which was like reaaally early cuz only the teachers and Gok Heng were at TGI Fridays. Miss Joanna Foo came not long after and i followed her to the ATM which ate up her 200 bucks and she had to go to another one to withdraw her money. Then the both of us went to reload her Digi credit which was nearby and then to her specs shop which was at the other end. By the time we arrived back, a lot more people had arrived and i had worked up an appetite by then. Hee.

All in all there were roughly 30 people and we were all one noisy bunch. Our group of people were already a naturally loud group but add a football match between ManU and Liverpool plus 2 birthdays from our group of people, you guess lah. Haha.

I think it was quite a fun night considering i was sitting quite far away from Vonnie and Mawissa. I got to talk to Yee Mae, whom i rarely see, and FOO, whose birthday it was. I also sat across from Usha who was the other birthday girl!

Us girls with Ms. Jane, Pn. Subbu and Pn. Sulo.

After dinner ended, Vonnie's dad dropped me off in front of my house but i instead went next door to Syafiqah's who invited me over to celebrate her belated birthday with her. Haha. What a busy day.

I got to meet Farhana a.k.a Giler-Giler!! and also Norwan whom i haven't seen ever since standard 6! She moved to Taiping, that's why and she was here for a short trip considering the school hols. Hee.

*coughcough* Farhana. XD At first when i saw Norwan across the living room i turned to Farhana and said *Eh. Who's that girl. Look SOOO familiar. Why like i know her wan.*

Then Farhana said *umm. siapa tu. oh. NorMAN*

Me: eh? is it? eh ya laaa. ask her come here.

Farhana: Norman!!.....Normannnn!!!.... NORMANN!!

She looks up and looks a bit puzzled with the *are they calling me?* kind of face. The both of us wave her over and justttt before she gets near us, Syahir who was beside Farhana looks at us and goes like *nama dia bukan NorWAN ke???*

Then both of us are like OMG. LOL. Hahahaha. Couldn't stop laughing after that.

Me and Syafiqah, the girl whom i've known since i was probably 4 years old. =D

Giler-Gilerrrr!

With ShaSha (she cut her hairrrr!!) and Norwan. =)

One of those things...

Fri, 13 Mar 2009 06:26:47 GMT

How true is this?

I agree with a few and disagree too.

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love: (Can I say LOL?)

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education:

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.